Dilemma
I never bothered to mention it before, but I kinda have to now, because I am looking for some feedback. On November 23, I was laid off on the 90th day of my 90-day probation. It sucked, but not that much. They graciously offered a little severance which they did not have to do, and this will serve me well through the holiday season. The reasons were mainly because the reason for my being hired in the first place no longer exist. I may have contributed to this, actually; I made a strong case for a key feature to not be included in my projects. But that's part of my job, and regardless of the results, I am glad I at least did that well.As you all know, this hasn't been an easy fall. The health issues alone made things very challenging at work. Towards the end, I was missing work, missing sleep and looking like pure shit most of the time. My mind was foggy, I was depressed and part of me was wondering if I could even do my job adequately. I am sure that this was a part of their decision, and if so, I respect that. There wasn't much I could do about it.
Since November 23rd, I have been largely taking it easy and getting as much rest as I can get under the circumstances. My mind has expanded to take in more young adult cancer projects. I am more involved with Survive and Thrive Expeditions. I am seeing a therapist. And I started chemotherapy again, but in pill form. I have just begun the second 10-day round, and so far it's been a pretty positive experience.
So I keep busy. I am enjoying this time off. I feel as though I am healing slowly but surely. I don't feel nearly as desperate as I did before, although I have by no means thrown away my new perspective on time.
Here's the thing: I really REALLY think that I could get a new job very quickly. Here are the advantages:
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