Reinforced

Sometimes I make an entry and then forget about my blog completely. Rose and I spent the day together, and I wasn't near a computer at all. Now it's nearly 1 am Monday morning and I am just checking my comments section.

I am overwhelmed.

I didn't expect this kind of outpouring. I won't go into the things that I was thinking about ten minutes ago, lying awake in bed, but I will say this: your thoughts and emotions have reinforced my resolve tenfold. I feel stronger than I have in weeks, even months. I feel as though I can do anything now. Even beat cancer once and for all. Or not. If it comes back again and again, I feel as though I could deal with that, too, as long as you are all behind me.

I've heard that bloggers are selfish and pompous exhibitionists, full of themselves. I've always known differently, but I've never felt it this much. If it weren't for blogging, and Yulblog in particular, I might be feeling very different right now. I won't forget all the things you've already done for me these past months.

And Rose, you're the most important non-blogging blogger there is. Don't think that I don't know that. I definitely do.

So I will continue, bravely and defiantly. This won't break me. It will not. There are times when spite is your best friend.

Thanks, everyone.