I can't take this anymore

I was going to get all creative and tell you all about the week in hospital that I went through last week using war metaphors and so on, but I can't keep that up.

I took Vancomycin twice a day last week. This is what happened. My arm would erupt in mind-splitting pain requiring morphine twice a day. My temperature would spike twice a day as well. If I had my choice, I would take the pain corrected by morphine.

The swelling in my arm was all but gone by Thursday night, as was the pain. Even the high temps were under control, so they discharged me Friday afternoon with some Vancomycin that I take intravenously. Of course, as soon as I got home, the temperature went through the roof again and has yo-yo'd ever since. Most of my time (more than 15 hours a day) is spent with a high temperature and me squirming around because of it.

I should note that my surgeon thinks that something fishy is going on. I should not be suffering this much. It should not go on like this. He says that once you remove the line from a line infection, you should be fine within 24 hours, so something is promoting these bacteria. My third round of chemo was supposed to start last Thursday, and has been delayed to this Thursday assuming that I can get rid of the bacteria. He has a different perspective than everyone else; we have to get this taken care of ASAP because the tumour is not getting treated as it should. His idea is we get rid of the vein altogether, and I am beginning to think likewise, because I can't take this anymore. I take Tylenol to try to control the spikes, but it does less and less. Basically, I take the Vancomycin for two hours, and suffer for around six. I can't sleep for more than 15-20 minutes at a time.

I just can't do it anymore.

Please, if you have any suggestions, leave a comment.

UPDATE: 7:38 am: I just noticed a slightly sensitive swelling in my throat. I have an appointment with an infectious diseases doctor in two hours. Let's hope we can actually get somewhere.