My disorder

I have a disorder called selective narcolepsy. It seems as though I will fall dead asleep in certain situations. In fact, it is so selective as to be isolated to work training sessions that I have no desire to go to. It just happened, actually, about an hour ago.

Imagine a portrayal of a person trying to keep 3 tons of water from knocking down his hut. Walls are caving in; springs are leaking from a dozen places at once. And he's the only one that can keep the hut from washing away. That's what it was like listening to this boring product training being given by a Marketing Woman that talks in FUCKING UPSPEAK?

It was almost exaggerated the way I was nodding and nodding. Someone demonstrated what I looked like. My eyes were rolled up into my head half the time, yet I kept them open, so it looked as though I were possessed or something. If I gave in and let the waters wash away my hut, I could have slid right out of my chair into the floor, or maybe a coworker. It really was a constant struggle for to maintain...(what's that's word that means 'state of being awake'? I don't think that awakeness or wakitude are words.). If I cared much about this, or if there were anything I could do about it I would be embarrassed. I am looking for suggestions if you have any.

As soon as it was over, I started feeling alert again. There are at least two more of these sessions this week and next. Fun times. I'll try to sleep an extra hour the night before.