There seems to be something about my ass that makes women (that is, the ones that would sleep with me) want to fuck it.
One of Rose's biggest fantasies is to do the strap-on thing with me. And since I am so cool, she felt comfortable asking me. That's huge, I think. She hasn't felt comfortable asking anyone else. That means something.
On the other hand, she wants to fuck me up the ass.
But she isn't the first to express this sentiment. A little more than half of my sample group has expressed a very measurable degree of desire to do that to me. I wonder why that is. Is there something about the shape of it that is appealing? Gay men haven't hit on me (but maybe they're thinking about it, peering from their closet). This could say a lot about me, or rather, how I treat women in bed.
Maybe they feel empowered with me to express their real desires. Maybe they feel disempowered by me and want to reclaim some kind of power by turning the tables. I have heard about the power trip that they want. Personally, I don't really think that the power all rests in the hands of the man unless you say that sex ends when the man comes, or can't perform. In that case, how powerful can a man really feel? He can't do it (again). He has to leave the party early. That sucks.
It seems to me that if (and that's a big if) there is a real imbalance in sexual power, then it lies in favour of women. They often decide whether or not it will happen (but of course, this depends on your point of view), and the final judgement of the whole experience seems to be theirs. I mean, most men are pretty happy if they come, and write off the woman's orgasm as some kind of impossible dream (I can hear some women saying, "But the problem with men is..." and I won't argue this, but I believe there are understandable, if not fair reasons). I get the feeling that women write off their own orgasms as some kind of impossible dream, and the man's as a necessary and obvious stopping rule, like computer program kill switches (men do this, too, obviously, I mean, look at porn).
But I am getting off track. My ass seems to attract an undue amount of unusual attention, and I don't know what to make of it. I have always just taken it as being rather normal until now. I think it must have to do with the request. Rose was really very sincere and sweet when she asked. I have reservations about it. But now it's an joke. If I deny her anything, she threatens me with it. For example:
R: "Will you come to China with me if I make a lot of money?"
JP: "I'd rather go somewhere else."
R: "Strap-on!"
She kills me sometimes.
